Wew ... Been quite a long time since i last visited DA. Quite a lot happened, the passing of my father, keep moving in and out of dwellings, house to apartment to house again, pressure and mental limitations, new environment, important decisions, and now i have to decide what to do for the rest of my life. Working to realize my dreams, or, working for everyday needs. The problem is I don't know what i want or where to search or something as a trigger. I don't know where my passion lies even though I am doing new things lately. I'm at a lost .....
And in front of me, my used-to-be-lost-of-passion brother has found his way to climb up and fix his life. He's living his life to the fullest and gonna make a change soon. He's found his passion after wandering off to any fields he could find.
So now i'm in a position where i should follow his path and do anything that can fix my life. I'm under pressure here and none really cares whether i should work with passion or not. Tried seeking my answers in vain. Read motivation books, people's biography, none inspired.
Now I'm just gonna finish what i have started and see if i'm going to find the passion in solitary work.
Making a song of SPYAIR - BEAUTIFUL DAYS as a reminder of what i should be doing.
Listening to: SPYAIR - Beautiful Days
Reading: fairy tales and ancient hindu texts
Watching: any good movie i see on cable tv
Playing: NDSI Harvest Moon GB
Eating: Fried Chicken but i have a cough, so plain soup :D